JTCPhoenix

I've forgotten already, why I'm so scared. don't make me love again, I'm not really here. something inside tells me run and hide. you hold my hand and tell me I'm fine Freaked out, Insecure, Nervous, Emotional. I'm fine being here with you. Yet again you assure me with sweetness in your voice, and leave in your eyes. Your works, your words have been said before. I'm terrified of you. I'm terrified of me. What I can do and what I can be. What I'm doing, why can't I see. What I'm doing here is a mirror so I look at myself in fear and begin to steer away. Off road off track. No looking back I lack the heart yet feel the attack. I'm pa

Your shine caresses my face as I awake, arms spreading wide like tree branches to better breath you. My eyes open slowly taking their time to adjust to your radiance. The night is over finally over. The last of the owls have made their queries, the wings of twilight returned to their caves; your time is neigh. Green my garb as I greet you, you tell me I am beautiful, and I smile. I have been kissed before but those before having come and gone, they love only what they may profit by me. You give ever selflessly, an angel from heaven. Your gifts of love – mindful and gracious – bring me life. By and by I ask myself why you must leav

Greasy hair glazed and disheveled upon endless days of heartened malaise Meandering forth and to and froe by frames of paint-less stretches Printed hands they press against the paint-less and the rest No other wish imagined more than velvet hands soft and warm Her name though others might, none as much her smile, her style Blues of seas she sees through me of airy morn’s and morning Laughter and harmonies echoing boisterous ‘ever where and when A question raised for yet to be you, will my tenderness reach

A leaf on the wind never here for too long Like the tide on a shore or a note in a song Carefree as it drifts through the breezy blue sky Crescendoing whilst the winds carry it high Down down it then goes with sails now stalling Dancing ‘tween trees like a pendulum falling Then up with a gust a second wind found Ascending, now soaring, far up above ground Upon wispy winged wind a leaf finds its delight for the earth imparts grounding, our salvation is flight

I think I’m happy, When I don’t think about how unhappy I am. Is that a strange thing to say?

When I’m awake, I want to sleep, I have dreams of what could be us. When I’m sleeping, I want to wake I want to see your beautiful smile. We no longer meet, and I sleep dreamlessly.

I Love you, and you say you Love me too. So, what now? Pretend, when we can, that we don’t.

I can be strong and not miss you You can’t stay strong and you kiss me. Yet you feel sad when I say I want us forever.